I did it! I found the time to get myself out the door and actually go on a training run (as you can see by my new widget). I was even strong enough to leave a squealing Katie back at home as I went. I left her with her grandpa, he raised me, so he should be able to handle her, right? It was two days after I had planned, but I did hit the pavement and it was for between 4-5 miles as planned. Slow. Completed. I'm sure my speed will come back so long as I keep at it. I've got a long way to go, but I've made the first step. Again.
The run was good. Hot at times, which is hard for me, but relatively cool through the whole run. I wore my marathon shirt to remind myself that I could do it, yet again. My thoughts were all over the place. The most enjoyable ones were of the course at Walt Disney World, but I did also think again about Boston. That's when I lost myself in the run. I thought especially about the picture of the professional dancer who lost the lower half of one of her legs and she vows to dance again. I thought about how she had the career I always wanted. The career I had the talent for but never had the body. I thought about how devastating it would be to me if I can't dance anymore. I thought about her and kept running. Maybe I was running for her then, or maybe I was just lost in the pavement. It's been two weeks since Boston, but it feels like yesterday. I wonder if there will be a day when I go out and don't think about it. I came home and looked up Boston qualifying times and smiled. At the pace that I completed my first marathon, I would have needed to be 75 years old to qualify. Ha! I'm slow. But I am out there. I just need to remind myself of that. I then decided to look up how my friend did in Eugene. He was running on a bum foot and he still finished in 3:13! He is a Boston Qualifier for something like the 6th time. I'll run for him too! I'm beyond impressed with those who qualify, and I especially love those who are working harder now to qualify to run Boston and prove they will not be scared.
But I am back at step one... Training begins again.